Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Back to Basic

When my hubby and I are sitting for breakfast or snack, there are a lot of things that we talked about. Our two cuties, adorable and bright kids, our love story, our personal lives- aside and apart from our family life, etc.
That is, if he's got more time before work or there isn't much traffic on that particular day.
At breakfast table today, we talked about how amazing it is to wake up with your whole self intact.
Few of us really appreciate the things that are given to us by the Almighty Father in Heaven. For instance, did we thank Him this morning for the eyes that we have to see the beautiful things around us?
When somebody would approach you and buy your eyes for, say, 10 Billion dollars, will you sell it to that person?
No, of course not!
How can we be able to see with out your eyes?
That is how important our eyes to us. But few of us really realized this fact.
Simplicity is the key here. Our senses guides us through the day. We are able to admire, see, be fully aware of what's around us.
Come to think of it : I remember some advertisement meant to say about a vitamin some popular personalities are endorsing with the line : " I want to be complete. "
Well, I guess, you don't have to take anything to be complete. Because, with your own self, with your senses, you are already complete.
Take it for instance, our sense of hearing- let us listen, be conscious of the sound on the background. If not for our ears, we might get hurt while crossing the street, or how can we listen and appreciate our favorite music?
Could we possibly understand the things our beloved family and friends are saying? I guess not.
And what about our sense of smell; have we any idea how essential it is to us?
We may not distinguish a spoiled food from the fresh ones. Oh, how could we ever smell our favorite perfume or flowers, perhaps?
So many things to think of, but our simple utter of thanks lets us get back from the beginning, where, only simple things like this are worth our apprehension. This is also going back to the basic. Where nothing really matters to us, but what the Creator has given, and that we are more than glad about it, we praise and we give Him our Salutations!
Yes, that is something to talk about over breakfast.
Because while we are at it, I have this pleasure of hearing his voice, soothing and smooth, easy to listen to, seeing his eyes, always kind, eager to see me. The scent of him...that is thrilling and teasing. Lovely!
To top it all, I realized, that even with these few scars that I have, the flaws and my imperfections, those things that I don't have and lack thereof... I am trully blessed. Because I have all my senses intact and all functioning all right.
So, by the morrow, when you wake up, before you get off from bed, be sure to give thanks and smile.
Be grateful that you are alive and complete.

Friday, October 24, 2008


Oftentimes, I see myself contented. I don’t need so much, what I have is enough.I don’t want to be selfish, so I meant to be happy by giving half myself to others and the other half to my creator.

Sometimes, I see myself a failure. My way of saying words to others, when I’m angry; my despairing thoughts; my foolishness; my demanding self towards love, caring, belongingness, etc.

At times, I see myself as a person. With a heart to love, understand, and feel what is bound to be felt; with a keen mind to think what is due for me-being a lovely creature on earth; with a soul to know that I’m existing.

But now is the time, I see myself –as a very strong person. Despiteof my carelessness, I felt glorified to be alive. I believe something great is gonna happen and is waiting for me. I expect good things to come along.

Because despite of loosing you, I gained. I admit that the trust I’ve for you seems to lessen. But the love I’m feeling is still burning. I do cherish you still, eventhough you’ve caused me hurt and tears.

I have loved you always. Trust is 100% of being inlove. I cared so much–that I forgot how to hear my heart’s desire for myself.

You are my star. The light of my life. You are my strength. I’m very much alive with my thoughts of you lingered each moment. You are my man; my dreams are so vivid as you in person.

Now your’e gone. I never knew that : right from the start, you are not meant for me. If I new then that I’ll lose you, I’ll still love you. Yes, but from a distance.

I love you but not in a selfish way. I let go of you, because I wanted you to be happy. Much happier. You must go. Don’t worry, I’ll be right here, patiently waiting. For you.

You know me. I could wait. I have practice the art of patience. I have been waiting for you. You came along. I taught I will never lose you again. But I failed. And now, I still have to wait.

Only for you. Two years. Three years. Only time can or will tell…When will be the last year before you and me. Only time will tell…If you are for me. Just in case our roads crossed, we might just smile and say goodbye. I might stare; You might pretend.

Whatever we’ll do, just remember that I was that one lass; whom you promised tomorrow. Whom you promised everything.

I was that one lass: Who believes in you. Who gave you everything without asking for something in return. Who felt being rejected–when you chose one thing over me.

I was that one lass : who could only love you unselfishly. Understand you wholly and been a crazy one to wait for you no matter what it takes.


Oftentimes, I missed you.

Sometimes, I’ve seen you.

At times, I need to see you.

But now is the time— to accept that I’ve lost you.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

thursday.october 16,2008@7:42pm

from the bottom of my heart,...
it's not always springtime...
but when it's gloomy and the sun won't come...
there's always some alibi to brighten me up and
make me smile.
it is not the fear of knowing, but the joy of illusion...
the fields may not be vast.
the future seemed clouded, but,
with a promise of each day that I embrace...
there is always hope...
hope that my soul will find somehow...
and my aching memoirs of some past.
here is the sonnet...
here is the grave...
take it and just forget.